Well it’s 7am and I got woken up by the idea of writing this blog post. Truth be told I’m probably still on some kind of cacao aftereffect from consuming all my left-over mental space invaders at 11pm last night…not the best idea.
So yes, I’ve no real idea where i’m going with this, let’s see shall we?
Why you can’t fall off the raw wagon.
I hear lots of times about people falling off the raw food wagon and I think it’s worthwhile clearing up a few misconceptions around this idea.
1. Have you seen a wagon? This is what one looks like…
Correct me if I’m wrong but these pretty much died out two centuries ago so my first question ought to be what the hell are you doing on one of these in the first place? No wonder you fell off, nobody in their right mind would travel like this! Probably on an unconscious level you threw yourself off for looking soooo 19th century!
Secondly, it looks pretty hard to me to fall off one of these babies. Unless of course you’re sitting in the back in which case – why aren’t you driving? And what are you doing with other people in your wagon? On your journey? Driving for you? Wouldn’t it be more apt to say “I fell off the MV Agusta F4 1100 CC? That, by the way, is a very expensive motorbike. I don’t know motorbikes but I googled ‘very expensive motorbikes’ and it was the first. Anyway! You get my drift right? You’re driving alone on this beast of a machine and if you fall off it’s normally cos you’re going far too fast!
I speak tongue in cheek of course but I was interested to discover where this saying came from. Apparently in the days of the prohibition on alcohol the “wagon” referred to the water cart used to hose down dusty roads on hot days (yes this saying is very old). Basically the saying that a person was ‘on the wagon’ meant they’d rather climb aboard the water cart to quench their thirst than have a drop of alcohol. Those that weren’t on the wagon were alcoholics in the main. There you go, I didn’t know that… Do you think your gorgeous self should be compared to an alcoholic? A horrible drunk?
Think what that kind of comparison is doing to your psyche! 🙂
So what am I on about? Good question.
In the early days I would tell myself I’d fallen off the raw wagon when I’d had some cooked food and as such I felt like a total failure and would generally beat myself up for a day or two. Or worse, I’d actually cry cos I thought how come everyone else can do this and I can’t! What a stupidly ridiculous thing to do and I cringe thinking about it but at the same time I know that it was part of the learning process too. I can look back now and realise that I was expecting too much of myself too fast. Charting your progress over time on a big graph SHOULD in my opinion show peaks and troughs, it’s what learning is all about. If you want to learn the most on this journey then the best way to do it is to make mistakes now and again – we are all human, mistakes are what makes us sexy little species!
That’s why I decided to blow up the bloody wagon. I figured, if there isn’t a wagon how can I fall off it? It took me a while of course but eventually I gathered enough bleedin’ dynamite to send that rusty, dusty old piece of shit (that wasn’t serving me EVER) sky high to smithereeeeeens! Not once did that wagon do me a trusty deed, in fact it made me look and feel bad and I held it in such high regard too! Stupid wagons. And you know what? As soon as I didn’t have my wagon anymore I actually got on a lot better. When I did eat cooked food I knew that it was because that was what was right for me at that time, it served a purpose whether that was conscious or otherwise. We can be so short-sighted sometimes. It’s important to see the bigger picture.
“Perfection is a good ideal and direction to have, but recognize it for what it is: an impossible destination” Tim Ferriss
I think that we are all on a path and sometimes you will wander off that path, sometimes you will get lost and take a few days or even weeks or even months on a wee detour and then find the path again. That can be frustrating but it’s ok to go off-roading from time to time, sometimes it’s necessary! There are times you can run fast on your path, other times it’s a bit up-hill and you go a bit slower. Sometimes you wonder if you’re on the right path, and you realise perhaps it’s not yours it’s someone elses path – they can look quite similar can paths! Sometimes you can’t see the damn path cos it’s a bit foggy and somebody else lends you their torch or walks alongside you. Sometimes you have to trust that the fog will lift and have faith. This is a much nicer analogy than a bloody old-fashioned wagon!
So if you’ve been falling off your wagon and beating yourself up, trade it in for something else or better still, have a bloody big bonfire with it. You’ll be so glad you did 🙂
This blog was written by Raw Food Scotland's previous owner, Emma Calvert. You can reach her at her new website, https://missmanifestation.com/